Nästintill varenda ord känns passande. Ikväll känns allt lite extra jobbigt, varför vet jag inte. Kommer väl alltid komma såna dagar men jag hatar dom. Jag orkar helt enkelt inte bryta ihop, igen! Kanske hjälper att skriva av sig lite, som terapi. Dom flesta vet ju det mesta men det gör faktiskt inte saken bättre, jag kommer nog alltid älska honom trots hur han betett sig och det har självklart många svårt att förstå. Det är inget jag kan förklara och det vill jag inte heller. Såna här dagar är hemskt jobbiga men jag tror att det behövs för att kunna gå vidare nån gång. Fan. Det här hjälper inte, jag behöver gråta.

M.



I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you